Its the little things that makes you happy.

My friend had a problem balancing his studies and his love life, I helped him solve his troubles. My girlfriend ( a girl, a friend) had something done to her hair which I've noticed, I said it looks nice. My long lost friend added me on Facebook, I had a big smile :D.

It was quite a long time for me to find out that these little things like concern, praise, and contact can make someone really happy. These things doesn't need money, doesn't take a lot of time, and does not tire. Just need some effort. Even the thought of someone can make their day.

These little things, I need to use them in my everyday life. No matter how busy I get, as like Jay Sean have said, "we make time for our loved ones".

"Kiss me thru the phone, see you when I get home"

No one forced you to do it.

We plan our life. We want great things in life. Most people chose to further their studies. Get a job and being successful at it. We wanted to work in fields that we have most interest in, so we chose a relevant route in getting there.

I am lucky to have understanding parents who didnt force me to study in fields that they wanted me to be in. Instead, they let me choose my own path. When I was little, my mom wanted me to become a doctor. But when I grew up, she understands that I have other interests.

If you're bad at doing something that you like, I can imagine how bad you can be, doing something else...
But if you manage do it right, I can imagine how great you can be, doing it.

"I would like to point out that you are 5 miles ahead of the finish line... so, you can stop now =.="

"But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare"

New Years Resolution and All Other Resolutions

At every start of a new year, people around me mostly talk about  the reunion, the celebration and the new years resolution. They aim for improvement of themselves in the coming year. hoping to be a better person, and having a better life next year. While my new years resolution is usually on fire the most at the early weeks of the new year,  it slowly fades throughout the coming months and finally goes out before the calendar even hit July. so this year, its going to be different. I hope.

Watching a show on 8TV called 'The Buried Life' had taught me to rethink about my part and what I should do as an individual in this world. So I made a list of 100 Things to do in 2011. it contains  resolutions and achievements that I need to accomplish in the year 2011. I hope I will be able to finish it before the end of 2011.

I know if I didn't do this, I wont be able to improve myself as I had hoped for in 2010. Then, at the end of 2011, it will start all over again. And my 'new years resolution' would just be something imaginary that comes out from my mouth. just words, with no meaning.

An uncle of mine once told me, "Failing to plan, is planning to fail"

"Tick  tock, on the clock

But the party don't stop, no"

Reflections

We learn from our experience that we dont know ourselves 100%. People sometimes know us better than we know ourselves. They see part of us that we cannot see.. Our projection. While we see part of us that they cannot see.. Our image.

So to know about ourselves better, we ask others. "What do you think about me?" usually people wont tell us what they really feel, not 100%, not directly. there will be some sort of flattery and hidden truths that they hide to not make us feel bad.

Some people like myself can except the truth weather its good or bad, but if it was to be told by the appropriate ways by appropriate people. I can except to be told something bad or good about me by the people i am most close too. They also should tell me one-to-one without others knowing about our conversation. they should also not use high voice tones on me. To me, thats a good advice, and not the release of trapped emotion.

The time to say it is also an important aspect. Tell me when I am fully able to accept it or at least when I am not in a bad mood.

"Human, human, human, human,
Human, human, human, human,
Human, human, human, human,
Human, human, human after all"

Creativity

We lose our creativity with age. I think its because we are conforming ourselves with society. Remember when we were little, we play and enjoy life without needing to think about the troubles and problems of life.
Do what we want to do, be what we want to be. In the process of growing up, we need to reach 'maturity' where we were restricted in our actions, thoughts and behaviour.

Where the loss in creativity gives way to better things, we gain in respect, skills, a new way of thinking, and a whole new set of actions. We are able to use these abilities in shaping and contributing to the world. A balance of these two natures can make us an individual instead of a Robot or a Troublemaker.

"Something I can do without"

Gone

I just got back from hanging out with my brother and his/ my friend Bani Aiman where we spent the whole day roaming Kuala Lumpur. We had evening tea at DOME and talked about our latest happenings. I enjoyed hanging with my brother and his friends. Every time I followed with him, I learned something new about the social life. I noticed that my brother likes to hang out often with his old school mate friends on semester breaks. I find it interesting that the group is still well connected even after a few years finished high school. Their bond is still strong, its like they've never been separated.

I reflected the situation on myself and knew that I am not like them. I've less contact with my fellow friends as soon as I left school. I'm not as close to them now as I was before we graduated. So I've decided to get in touch with every single one of my friends while I still can. I've started texting and calling them. Keeping the dying relationship alive. I don't want such a beautiful relationship to end. Because if not, after a while we could go be back to square one, trying to get to know each other back. All over again.

Before this, it's not that I forgot about them that I had not called. It's because I always feel that they are close to me, so I don't feel miss.

-A quote I heard from a senior student here:
"What makes someone dead? It's when they are forgotten"


"All I've wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth"

Kau buat aku hilang mood.

Kalau kau cakap, kau nak aku dengar. Tapi bila aku aku cakap, kau dok main-main, kau tak nak dengar. Aku rasa nak sepak(kick) je muka kau. Aku tak suka betul orang yang tak nak dengar bila aku cakap. Satu lagi benda yang aku tak suka bila orang tinggikan suara kat aku. Nasib baik kau jenis tak tinggi suara. Kalau tak, memang aku dah tumbuk muka kau free-free je.

Aku mintak benda simple aje. Aku nak kau tutup je mulut and dengar aku explain. Ni tak. Kejap-kejap menyampuk, kejap-kejap komen, gelak-gelak, message. 7 Kali pulak tu kau menyampuk...
Memang tak reti bahasa lah tu.

"but we won't let it go for nothing"